So grateful.

Hey guys. I celebrated my birthday this month and I'd been reflecting a lot on my life. I am so grateful to God for allowing me to live this long. I know a couple of people that did not live long enough to see 38 years. I am so grateful for what I have learned in this time span. I won't claim to know everything because I don't. And to be honest with you all....I don't want to. I love learning about new things. It helps to keep you young and healthy. Revelation also helps to you have a better understanding of who God is. He is so vast and so big that you will never get to the bottom of who He is. Even with eternity, we will still never know all of who He is. I am grateful that my family is safe. We had a fire at our home this past April that was my fault. We got our home, clothing, furniture and lives back. It still feel regret though. I almost killed my family. Lord knows that I would never intentionally do anything to hurt them. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would do things differently. But God is helping me get through that as well. It takes prayer to help you deal with it and get through it. I won't say that it has been easy. God really showed His hand in all this. Blessing after blessing we have been receiving in spite of this. God is awesome. And last but certainly not least: my grandmother is still with us. Last year, we could have lost her. But God.....Him being who is, a Healer, did not allow that to happen. How great is our God. I am so grateful. I take care of some of her needs and my youngest brother helps me out. She can clean herself, cook and feed herself, and go to the bathroom on her own. But she does need some assistance with her walking which she is getting better at. She wants to get better which helps with her healing. And God is doing that for her. I am grateful also for you guys reading this. Without you, I really wouldn't be here. I am grateful for every life that God allows me to speak into. I pray for you guys all the time. I pray that God enriches your lives as you live your life. He saves, heals, delivers, educates and restores you in every area of your life. I thank God for you everyday. Always remember to be thankful and be grateful. Because things could be different.

Take a risk.

Hey everyone. I do apologize for not writing as much as I should. These last few months have been refreshing while at the same time difficult. But I have been learned a lot. I have learned that it is okay to take a leap of faith. As a matter of fact, I am still learning that. I have been frustrated, angry at myself and at the situation, and irritated. I lost hope. My faith dropped really low. I knew God was working the situation out but I wanted it to work out the waynI wanted to. I didn't get what I wanted. But what I found out was that it was not going to go the way I wanted because it wasn't about me. I can't get into it right now but my family went through something that was caused by me. I hated the fact that I did what I did. I don't know if I have forgiven myself for what I have done. That is something that I have to work on. I just wanted my family to have everything that they needed. Material and immaterial. God understands that. We have to learn though how to follow the plans that God has for us. We might not necessarily like His plans but we must learn to follow through with those plans. It is not about us. It's about something greater than us. And it often requires that we take a wild leap of faith. Wild? Yeah, wild. We have to got to get up the courage to make sure that His plan for our lives is walked out in us. We often become afraid to make certain steps because of a variety of things such as low self esteem, confidence, education and finances. He understands all this but He does not want any of it to overtake us. We have authority in Jesus Christ. We can overcome anything. Lo Debar is not a place where any of us have to live. For those of you who don't know, Lo Debar is like a ghetto according to biblical standards. And who really wants to live in the ghetto? Take that leap of faith to bring yourself up and out of the state that you are in. His blessing is upon you. As long as you know where you want to go and you follow God's plan for your life, you can soar as high as you want. Just stay high and don't long for the ground.

My First Love

I miss you. And I love you. You will forever be in my heart and life.

Roots & Branches

Hey y'all. I have been thinking about something for about a day now. Here it is: A lot of what we seek ourselves and what other people do, whether it is good or bad, are just the branches. There are roots that have grown those branches. Think of a tree. A tree only needs a few roots to grow tall. And as it grows, the tree sprouts branches. If you are ever wondering why you or anybody else acts in a way that is unacceptable in any atmosphere, check the roots. A person's past can tell you a lot about their behavior. Examine each branch and ask yourself are you willing to tolerate such behavior in spite of the roots. And if you are, ask yourself why you are willing to accept the behavior. I just wanted to give you guys something to think about.

A New Me and A New You!

Hey everybody! I missed you all so much! I want you all to forgive me for not writing. I have been caught in other things and neglected to take care of what God has given me. Please forgive me for that. I know that there may people who read my blog and want to hear from me so I have made a vow to do what the Lord has called me to do. 

I want you all to know that I am not who was a year a go. God has increased my knowledge and strength in Him. My family has been through a lot with my grandfather dying in January of last year and my grandmother who had fallen ill. And by the power, mercy and grace of God my grandmother is doing extremely well. She is getting back to where she can do for herself again. Even my father almost lost his life in January because of a blood clot that was too close to his heart. But God....

Y'all we serve an awesome God. Even when we don't feel it or situations make it look like He is not, He yet is. I have a better appreciation of Him now. And I want you guys to have a better appreciation of Him as well. I will be writing more regularly this year. You will hear from me a lot more this year. God has already spoke a lot in this new year already. God said this is the year of suddenly. A year of surprise. He is going to surprise us with the the blessings we have been praying for for years. And He will do it quickly. Suddenly. Keep looking and keep praying. Love you guys!