Take a risk.

Hey everyone. I do apologize for not writing as much as I should. These last few months have been refreshing while at the same time difficult. But I have been learned a lot. I have learned that it is okay to take a leap of faith. As a matter of fact, I am still learning that. I have been frustrated, angry at myself and at the situation, and irritated. I lost hope. My faith dropped really low. I knew God was working the situation out but I wanted it to work out the waynI wanted to. I didn't get what I wanted. But what I found out was that it was not going to go the way I wanted because it wasn't about me. I can't get into it right now but my family went through something that was caused by me. I hated the fact that I did what I did. I don't know if I have forgiven myself for what I have done. That is something that I have to work on. I just wanted my family to have everything that they needed. Material and immaterial. God understands that. We have to learn though how to follow the plans that God has for us. We might not necessarily like His plans but we must learn to follow through with those plans. It is not about us. It's about something greater than us. And it often requires that we take a wild leap of faith. Wild? Yeah, wild. We have to got to get up the courage to make sure that His plan for our lives is walked out in us. We often become afraid to make certain steps because of a variety of things such as low self esteem, confidence, education and finances. He understands all this but He does not want any of it to overtake us. We have authority in Jesus Christ. We can overcome anything. Lo Debar is not a place where any of us have to live. For those of you who don't know, Lo Debar is like a ghetto according to biblical standards. And who really wants to live in the ghetto? Take that leap of faith to bring yourself up and out of the state that you are in. His blessing is upon you. As long as you know where you want to go and you follow God's plan for your life, you can soar as high as you want. Just stay high and don't long for the ground.

My First Love

I miss you. And I love you. You will forever be in my heart and life.

Roots & Branches

Hey y'all. I have been thinking about something for about a day now. Here it is: A lot of what we seek ourselves and what other people do, whether it is good or bad, are just the branches. There are roots that have grown those branches. Think of a tree. A tree only needs a few roots to grow tall. And as it grows, the tree sprouts branches. If you are ever wondering why you or anybody else acts in a way that is unacceptable in any atmosphere, check the roots. A person's past can tell you a lot about their behavior. Examine each branch and ask yourself are you willing to tolerate such behavior in spite of the roots. And if you are, ask yourself why you are willing to accept the behavior. I just wanted to give you guys something to think about.

A New Me and A New You!

Hey everybody! I missed you all so much! I want you all to forgive me for not writing. I have been caught in other things and neglected to take care of what God has given me. Please forgive me for that. I know that there may people who read my blog and want to hear from me so I have made a vow to do what the Lord has called me to do. 

I want you all to know that I am not who was a year a go. God has increased my knowledge and strength in Him. My family has been through a lot with my grandfather dying in January of last year and my grandmother who had fallen ill. And by the power, mercy and grace of God my grandmother is doing extremely well. She is getting back to where she can do for herself again. Even my father almost lost his life in January because of a blood clot that was too close to his heart. But God....

Y'all we serve an awesome God. Even when we don't feel it or situations make it look like He is not, He yet is. I have a better appreciation of Him now. And I want you guys to have a better appreciation of Him as well. I will be writing more regularly this year. You will hear from me a lot more this year. God has already spoke a lot in this new year already. God said this is the year of suddenly. A year of surprise. He is going to surprise us with the the blessings we have been praying for for years. And He will do it quickly. Suddenly. Keep looking and keep praying. Love you guys! 

Freedom

I wonder is it like to be free. I mean really free. No worries. No pain. No anxiety. Nothing that can cause you harm in form. Jesus has made me free from sins. It feels good to know that He did that for me. He didn't have to but He did for all of us. Yet there are some things that are clinging to me. It has been a struggle. Seriously. It has been a real fight. My flesh and spirit are at a constant war. Who is going to win? I understand what Paul says by some things I want to do, I don't do. Then there are some things I don't want to do but do. I so get that. I just want to be free in my mind as well as my spirit. No bills. No regrets. No shame. Completely free.

A love like that.

Hey guys. How are ya? ;)

I saw a movie by my favorite artist of all time this past weekend. Under The Cherry Moon. This is was my second time seeing it. The first time I saw it I really didn't pay it a whole lot of attention. But this go round I did. I like the movie a lot. Pretty funny, too. Tricky and Chris were hilarious. But you know what I got from it? I want a love just like that. I want someone who will love me no matter what I have. Or don't have. I want someone that will see my heart and not just my body. I want to be swept off my feet just like Mary Sharon was by Chris. He showed her that life can really be fun if you loosen up. Take a chance. That is something that I am learning how to do. I've been taught to always being afraid to do stuff. I want to take risks. I'm not saying I want to be careless but I do want to be spontaneous. I love how they met secretly and then when things got rough they no longer hid their relationship. Now, I don't want to betray my best friend for no man but I do want a love of my own. Someone that will go the distance and the miles for me. Someone that will love me divinely. Someone who will stand up for me and me for them. Somebody worth dying for. That is what I want. Now, if I had my way the ending would have been different. Christopher would....well, I'll let you see the movie for yourself.  ;)  But tell me something...is what I want wrong?

Khole......I've been there.

Hey everybody. Please forgive me for not writing sooner. It has been laziness for me. So please forgive me. But I feel like I have to talk about something. Khloe Kardashian. This girl, to me, gets a very bad rap. She really does. The media really tears this girl to shreds. And to me because of this she doesn't have the self esteem that she should have. Vey low self confidence. How do I know you say? Well, I was where she is mentally and emotionally. Now, we don't have the same background and have not been through the same things but there are some things that I have noticed about her that I myself used to do. I noticed that she really does not take the time to get to really know a person. She has gone from Lamar to French. Saying that, she is not paying any attention to what she is picking. See, when you date, you have to have discernment. You have check people's spirit out. Where are they coming from? Why do they act the way they act? Why do they hang around who they hang around? What are their motives for being with you? It is not that you are being insecure. It is that you have to be careful about you let into your life. Everybody cannot share your atmosphere with. What are their goals in life? What is it that they hope to accomplish? You must asks these questions. And even you must ask yourself these questions. You have to love yourself enough to not accept anything that is thrown your way. Just because it said "Hi!" does not mean you start to develop any type of relationship with it. Also, if this means that you have to be by yourself for a long time.....and I am not talking about a year or so.....I'm talking at least 3 or 4 years.....then so be it. Your heart and your head will thank you. Trust me. In the end, it will all be worth it. Pray Khloe and every other Khloe out there.