Obey. Prioritize. Organize.

Hey guys. I have to tell you all what I have learned in the last two weeks. Well, it was like this. We have an anointed towel that we pass around at our church by our pastor. We get to keep the towel for a whole week. Well, God saw fit that I get the towel. Yay me! I got the towel home and started spraying with it. Tuesday I ate my food with pepper in it which I am not suppose to do because I have GERD. I didn't think it would be bad but it was. I had to lay down at bible study on a pull out bed on my left side to try to ease the pain. It subsided just enough for me to make to the store to get some milk of magnesia. I was so sick y'all that some of my oxygen was starting to leave me. Once I got home, it took me forever just to get my clothes off to go to bed. I was hurting so bad. I had absolutely no strength or energy. I was that way for two days but God healed me even in my disobedience. During this week, I got a great job offer to be an administrative assistant for a renovation company. I took the job. But here is where everything went down. I started feeling like I needed to ask God if this is what He wanted for me. I did. The next day I was suppose to deposit a check for the company to buy their necessities for them. I went to my bank to make the deposit. Praying that I could all while going. I get their and I could not. All I could say was okay. I had to turn down that job. My mother and I decree over me that I will have money to support myself and the family. The next day which was Saturday I got a call from one of the elders at my church about one of the managers at her job wanting to interview me. I said yes. I went for the interview that Monday and now I am waiting for my call back. I said all of that to say this: obey God when He tells you to do something ahead of time. Don't be afraid to ask for help if you need to. Put your pride down so you can be blessed. Second, whatever is important that is what you concern yourself with. Everything else will fall in line once you make first things first. Lastly, get organized. Put everything in their proper places so when your blessing comes it won't be a hassle. You will have everything where you need it to be. Remember: obey, prioritize, and organize.

Time

Hey! I believe that my all time favorite Prince sing is Sign O' The Time. I love that song! It was created and recorded in 1986 and released as a single in 1987. It was so...on time. It was relevant then as it is still relevant now. As I was thinking about write tonight, I thought how we view the hours, the minutes and seconds of our lives. Many of us live as if there is no tomorrow. We try to squeeze every bit of existence out of life that we can. Then there are those of us to take to the time to enjoy every moment because to over look nor miss a thing. And lastly, there are those who waste every moment of life. Nothing is sentimental, emotional or important so these people allow everything and everyone to pass them by. What we do with the life that God has given is up to us. He placed gifts and talents on the inside of all us. My talent is not like yours and that is okay. We all don't look a like and that is okay, too. God wants us to take all of what He has given us and use it for His glory. We don't to let life pass us by because of uneducation, looks, or money. God said that He will supply us with all that we need as long as we seek to do those things He has called us to do. He knows our ages, physical ablilities, and so forth. But what He is saying to me and you is this: don't let none of that stop you. Go ahead and go forth. Get the degree. Start the business. Work in the ministry. He will show you what to do and how to do it. He will always prepare you for where you are going. Okay, you have children. Bring the kids along for the ride. Show your children that if you put your mind to it, you can do anything. And even if you were once someone who wasted time, God can catch you up if you put your trust and faith in Him. He will always make up for lost time. He loves you just that much. Don't ever think He don't. Oh how He loves us to create this thing called time.

Let go.

Hey everybody. You know... I have to think a lot about what I am going to write in this blog. Some days I think that it would be simple but that is not always the case. I ran into a situation not too long ago where it involved an adult guilt tripping another adult. And the other adult fell for it. Now mind you, this adult knows that this person this all the time. They know it. Yet they still choose to succumb to such stupidity and gaslighting. Why? They claim they don't nothing to happen to the other person or make them upset. Hm.

I have learned a long time ago don't let people manipulate you into believing or feeling anything tin at you don't want to or need to. Why allow someone else to set your thermostat? Why? Love yourself enough to know when enough is enough. You don't have to put up with bad behavior. You really don't. And sometimes that means not answering the phone. Not answering the door. Blocking people. All of it is necessary. And teach it to your kids. Show them just like you don't take the manipulation from them, they don't need to take it from anybody else.

Whatever happens to that person happens. Some stuff you can't stop. This is how people grow up. They have to go through something in order to get better. When you just let go, the other stuff will stop. I promise you.

I know who I am.

Hey guys. I have been doing some soul searching lately. I have done some discovering as well. And what I have been searching for and discovered is something that I have known all a long. I have been doing it since I wa 11 years old. I am a writer. That is what I am. There is no way of denying it. No way to get around it. I am a writer, poet and songwriter. I love words. I love how the right usage of words can change a person's life. I love the effect that words can positively have on people. I love going into the mind of authors and poets and get a feel of how the view the world around them. I love to read so much so that I could live in a library. Give me a great book, clothing, food and somewhere to bathe and I am good to go. This is who I am. I am proud to be who I am. And I want you all to know who you are. When you come into the realization of who you are, you are not afraid to be who you are. God created all of us to be unique. We all have different gifts and talents. We all look different. God loves variety thus making all of creation. I want you to ask yourself, " Who am I?" Find out what your purpose is. Once you discover that, you will discover your talent. Your talent will open up doors for you that you thought could never be opened. The journey is not an easy one but it is well worth it. Trust me. Knowing who you are and whose are is beautiful. It sets you free to be all that God says you can be.

New Year, New Expectations!

Hello wonderful people! I do apologize for not writing in such a long time. No excuses, just apologies. After going through what I went through in 2016, I have chosen to make some weekly changes in my life. I chosen to to be more consistent. I have been severely lacking in this area. I don't keep up with things as I should and I really do need to improve. Prime example: my writing. Iahve not been writing as much as I should. If I am ever going to get my book on the shelves, I actually need to finish writing it. Next, getting up on time. I take care of my grandmother everyday and she has doctor's appointments just about everyday. Some mornings I hate I have to get up so early for her appointments so sometimes I will lay in bed until I can't any more. But I have chosen to get better at that. Time management is everything concerning your life. Then, I want to study more of God's word this year. I didn't do as good as use to last year so I want to make changes. I know that I won't be able to do it in a span of a day but making steps to strive for that means a lot. I got a destiny that I must reach and I can't do it being lazy. Laziness will get you nowhere. So day by day, I suggest you guys start making little changes here and there. I think you will be surprised by how much you have grown before the year is out. Instead of new year's resolutions, they will be weekly resolutions. 😊

So grateful.

Hey guys. I celebrated my birthday this month and I'd been reflecting a lot on my life. I am so grateful to God for allowing me to live this long. I know a couple of people that did not live long enough to see 38 years. I am so grateful for what I have learned in this time span. I won't claim to know everything because I don't. And to be honest with you all....I don't want to. I love learning about new things. It helps to keep you young and healthy. Revelation also helps to you have a better understanding of who God is. He is so vast and so big that you will never get to the bottom of who He is. Even with eternity, we will still never know all of who He is. I am grateful that my family is safe. We had a fire at our home this past April that was my fault. We got our home, clothing, furniture and lives back. It still feel regret though. I almost killed my family. Lord knows that I would never intentionally do anything to hurt them. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would do things differently. But God is helping me get through that as well. It takes prayer to help you deal with it and get through it. I won't say that it has been easy. God really showed His hand in all this. Blessing after blessing we have been receiving in spite of this. God is awesome. And last but certainly not least: my grandmother is still with us. Last year, we could have lost her. But God.....Him being who is, a Healer, did not allow that to happen. How great is our God. I am so grateful. I take care of some of her needs and my youngest brother helps me out. She can clean herself, cook and feed herself, and go to the bathroom on her own. But she does need some assistance with her walking which she is getting better at. She wants to get better which helps with her healing. And God is doing that for her. I am grateful also for you guys reading this. Without you, I really wouldn't be here. I am grateful for every life that God allows me to speak into. I pray for you guys all the time. I pray that God enriches your lives as you live your life. He saves, heals, delivers, educates and restores you in every area of your life. I thank God for you everyday. Always remember to be thankful and be grateful. Because things could be different.

Take a risk.

Hey everyone. I do apologize for not writing as much as I should. These last few months have been refreshing while at the same time difficult. But I have been learned a lot. I have learned that it is okay to take a leap of faith. As a matter of fact, I am still learning that. I have been frustrated, angry at myself and at the situation, and irritated. I lost hope. My faith dropped really low. I knew God was working the situation out but I wanted it to work out the waynI wanted to. I didn't get what I wanted. But what I found out was that it was not going to go the way I wanted because it wasn't about me. I can't get into it right now but my family went through something that was caused by me. I hated the fact that I did what I did. I don't know if I have forgiven myself for what I have done. That is something that I have to work on. I just wanted my family to have everything that they needed. Material and immaterial. God understands that. We have to learn though how to follow the plans that God has for us. We might not necessarily like His plans but we must learn to follow through with those plans. It is not about us. It's about something greater than us. And it often requires that we take a wild leap of faith. Wild? Yeah, wild. We have to got to get up the courage to make sure that His plan for our lives is walked out in us. We often become afraid to make certain steps because of a variety of things such as low self esteem, confidence, education and finances. He understands all this but He does not want any of it to overtake us. We have authority in Jesus Christ. We can overcome anything. Lo Debar is not a place where any of us have to live. For those of you who don't know, Lo Debar is like a ghetto according to biblical standards. And who really wants to live in the ghetto? Take that leap of faith to bring yourself up and out of the state that you are in. His blessing is upon you. As long as you know where you want to go and you follow God's plan for your life, you can soar as high as you want. Just stay high and don't long for the ground.