Obey. Prioritize. Organize.

Hey guys. I have to tell you all what I have learned in the last two weeks. Well, it was like this. We have an anointed towel that we pass around at our church by our pastor. We get to keep the towel for a whole week. Well, God saw fit that I get the towel. Yay me! I got the towel home and started spraying with it. Tuesday I ate my food with pepper in it which I am not suppose to do because I have GERD. I didn't think it would be bad but it was. I had to lay down at bible study on a pull out bed on my left side to try to ease the pain. It subsided just enough for me to make to the store to get some milk of magnesia. I was so sick y'all that some of my oxygen was starting to leave me. Once I got home, it took me forever just to get my clothes off to go to bed. I was hurting so bad. I had absolutely no strength or energy. I was that way for two days but God healed me even in my disobedience. During this week, I got a great job offer to be an administrative assistant for a renovation company. I took the job. But here is where everything went down. I started feeling like I needed to ask God if this is what He wanted for me. I did. The next day I was suppose to deposit a check for the company to buy their necessities for them. I went to my bank to make the deposit. Praying that I could all while going. I get their and I could not. All I could say was okay. I had to turn down that job. My mother and I decree over me that I will have money to support myself and the family. The next day which was Saturday I got a call from one of the elders at my church about one of the managers at her job wanting to interview me. I said yes. I went for the interview that Monday and now I am waiting for my call back. I said all of that to say this: obey God when He tells you to do something ahead of time. Don't be afraid to ask for help if you need to. Put your pride down so you can be blessed. Second, whatever is important that is what you concern yourself with. Everything else will fall in line once you make first things first. Lastly, get organized. Put everything in their proper places so when your blessing comes it won't be a hassle. You will have everything where you need it to be. Remember: obey, prioritize, and organize.

Time

Hey! I believe that my all time favorite Prince sing is Sign O' The Time. I love that song! It was created and recorded in 1986 and released as a single in 1987. It was so...on time. It was relevant then as it is still relevant now. As I was thinking about write tonight, I thought how we view the hours, the minutes and seconds of our lives. Many of us live as if there is no tomorrow. We try to squeeze every bit of existence out of life that we can. Then there are those of us to take to the time to enjoy every moment because to over look nor miss a thing. And lastly, there are those who waste every moment of life. Nothing is sentimental, emotional or important so these people allow everything and everyone to pass them by. What we do with the life that God has given is up to us. He placed gifts and talents on the inside of all us. My talent is not like yours and that is okay. We all don't look a like and that is okay, too. God wants us to take all of what He has given us and use it for His glory. We don't to let life pass us by because of uneducation, looks, or money. God said that He will supply us with all that we need as long as we seek to do those things He has called us to do. He knows our ages, physical ablilities, and so forth. But what He is saying to me and you is this: don't let none of that stop you. Go ahead and go forth. Get the degree. Start the business. Work in the ministry. He will show you what to do and how to do it. He will always prepare you for where you are going. Okay, you have children. Bring the kids along for the ride. Show your children that if you put your mind to it, you can do anything. And even if you were once someone who wasted time, God can catch you up if you put your trust and faith in Him. He will always make up for lost time. He loves you just that much. Don't ever think He don't. Oh how He loves us to create this thing called time.

Let go.

Hey everybody. You know... I have to think a lot about what I am going to write in this blog. Some days I think that it would be simple but that is not always the case. I ran into a situation not too long ago where it involved an adult guilt tripping another adult. And the other adult fell for it. Now mind you, this adult knows that this person this all the time. They know it. Yet they still choose to succumb to such stupidity and gaslighting. Why? They claim they don't nothing to happen to the other person or make them upset. Hm.

I have learned a long time ago don't let people manipulate you into believing or feeling anything tin at you don't want to or need to. Why allow someone else to set your thermostat? Why? Love yourself enough to know when enough is enough. You don't have to put up with bad behavior. You really don't. And sometimes that means not answering the phone. Not answering the door. Blocking people. All of it is necessary. And teach it to your kids. Show them just like you don't take the manipulation from them, they don't need to take it from anybody else.

Whatever happens to that person happens. Some stuff you can't stop. This is how people grow up. They have to go through something in order to get better. When you just let go, the other stuff will stop. I promise you.

I know who I am.

Hey guys. I have been doing some soul searching lately. I have done some discovering as well. And what I have been searching for and discovered is something that I have known all a long. I have been doing it since I wa 11 years old. I am a writer. That is what I am. There is no way of denying it. No way to get around it. I am a writer, poet and songwriter. I love words. I love how the right usage of words can change a person's life. I love the effect that words can positively have on people. I love going into the mind of authors and poets and get a feel of how the view the world around them. I love to read so much so that I could live in a library. Give me a great book, clothing, food and somewhere to bathe and I am good to go. This is who I am. I am proud to be who I am. And I want you all to know who you are. When you come into the realization of who you are, you are not afraid to be who you are. God created all of us to be unique. We all have different gifts and talents. We all look different. God loves variety thus making all of creation. I want you to ask yourself, " Who am I?" Find out what your purpose is. Once you discover that, you will discover your talent. Your talent will open up doors for you that you thought could never be opened. The journey is not an easy one but it is well worth it. Trust me. Knowing who you are and whose are is beautiful. It sets you free to be all that God says you can be.

New Year, New Expectations!

Hello wonderful people! I do apologize for not writing in such a long time. No excuses, just apologies. After going through what I went through in 2016, I have chosen to make some weekly changes in my life. I chosen to to be more consistent. I have been severely lacking in this area. I don't keep up with things as I should and I really do need to improve. Prime example: my writing. Iahve not been writing as much as I should. If I am ever going to get my book on the shelves, I actually need to finish writing it. Next, getting up on time. I take care of my grandmother everyday and she has doctor's appointments just about everyday. Some mornings I hate I have to get up so early for her appointments so sometimes I will lay in bed until I can't any more. But I have chosen to get better at that. Time management is everything concerning your life. Then, I want to study more of God's word this year. I didn't do as good as use to last year so I want to make changes. I know that I won't be able to do it in a span of a day but making steps to strive for that means a lot. I got a destiny that I must reach and I can't do it being lazy. Laziness will get you nowhere. So day by day, I suggest you guys start making little changes here and there. I think you will be surprised by how much you have grown before the year is out. Instead of new year's resolutions, they will be weekly resolutions. 😊

So grateful.

Hey guys. I celebrated my birthday this month and I'd been reflecting a lot on my life. I am so grateful to God for allowing me to live this long. I know a couple of people that did not live long enough to see 38 years. I am so grateful for what I have learned in this time span. I won't claim to know everything because I don't. And to be honest with you all....I don't want to. I love learning about new things. It helps to keep you young and healthy. Revelation also helps to you have a better understanding of who God is. He is so vast and so big that you will never get to the bottom of who He is. Even with eternity, we will still never know all of who He is. I am grateful that my family is safe. We had a fire at our home this past April that was my fault. We got our home, clothing, furniture and lives back. It still feel regret though. I almost killed my family. Lord knows that I would never intentionally do anything to hurt them. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would do things differently. But God is helping me get through that as well. It takes prayer to help you deal with it and get through it. I won't say that it has been easy. God really showed His hand in all this. Blessing after blessing we have been receiving in spite of this. God is awesome. And last but certainly not least: my grandmother is still with us. Last year, we could have lost her. But God.....Him being who is, a Healer, did not allow that to happen. How great is our God. I am so grateful. I take care of some of her needs and my youngest brother helps me out. She can clean herself, cook and feed herself, and go to the bathroom on her own. But she does need some assistance with her walking which she is getting better at. She wants to get better which helps with her healing. And God is doing that for her. I am grateful also for you guys reading this. Without you, I really wouldn't be here. I am grateful for every life that God allows me to speak into. I pray for you guys all the time. I pray that God enriches your lives as you live your life. He saves, heals, delivers, educates and restores you in every area of your life. I thank God for you everyday. Always remember to be thankful and be grateful. Because things could be different.

Take a risk.

Hey everyone. I do apologize for not writing as much as I should. These last few months have been refreshing while at the same time difficult. But I have been learned a lot. I have learned that it is okay to take a leap of faith. As a matter of fact, I am still learning that. I have been frustrated, angry at myself and at the situation, and irritated. I lost hope. My faith dropped really low. I knew God was working the situation out but I wanted it to work out the waynI wanted to. I didn't get what I wanted. But what I found out was that it was not going to go the way I wanted because it wasn't about me. I can't get into it right now but my family went through something that was caused by me. I hated the fact that I did what I did. I don't know if I have forgiven myself for what I have done. That is something that I have to work on. I just wanted my family to have everything that they needed. Material and immaterial. God understands that. We have to learn though how to follow the plans that God has for us. We might not necessarily like His plans but we must learn to follow through with those plans. It is not about us. It's about something greater than us. And it often requires that we take a wild leap of faith. Wild? Yeah, wild. We have to got to get up the courage to make sure that His plan for our lives is walked out in us. We often become afraid to make certain steps because of a variety of things such as low self esteem, confidence, education and finances. He understands all this but He does not want any of it to overtake us. We have authority in Jesus Christ. We can overcome anything. Lo Debar is not a place where any of us have to live. For those of you who don't know, Lo Debar is like a ghetto according to biblical standards. And who really wants to live in the ghetto? Take that leap of faith to bring yourself up and out of the state that you are in. His blessing is upon you. As long as you know where you want to go and you follow God's plan for your life, you can soar as high as you want. Just stay high and don't long for the ground.

My First Love

I miss you. And I love you. You will forever be in my heart and life.

Roots & Branches

Hey y'all. I have been thinking about something for about a day now. Here it is: A lot of what we seek ourselves and what other people do, whether it is good or bad, are just the branches. There are roots that have grown those branches. Think of a tree. A tree only needs a few roots to grow tall. And as it grows, the tree sprouts branches. If you are ever wondering why you or anybody else acts in a way that is unacceptable in any atmosphere, check the roots. A person's past can tell you a lot about their behavior. Examine each branch and ask yourself are you willing to tolerate such behavior in spite of the roots. And if you are, ask yourself why you are willing to accept the behavior. I just wanted to give you guys something to think about.

A New Me and A New You!

Hey everybody! I missed you all so much! I want you all to forgive me for not writing. I have been caught in other things and neglected to take care of what God has given me. Please forgive me for that. I know that there may people who read my blog and want to hear from me so I have made a vow to do what the Lord has called me to do. 

I want you all to know that I am not who was a year a go. God has increased my knowledge and strength in Him. My family has been through a lot with my grandfather dying in January of last year and my grandmother who had fallen ill. And by the power, mercy and grace of God my grandmother is doing extremely well. She is getting back to where she can do for herself again. Even my father almost lost his life in January because of a blood clot that was too close to his heart. But God....

Y'all we serve an awesome God. Even when we don't feel it or situations make it look like He is not, He yet is. I have a better appreciation of Him now. And I want you guys to have a better appreciation of Him as well. I will be writing more regularly this year. You will hear from me a lot more this year. God has already spoke a lot in this new year already. God said this is the year of suddenly. A year of surprise. He is going to surprise us with the the blessings we have been praying for for years. And He will do it quickly. Suddenly. Keep looking and keep praying. Love you guys! 

Freedom

I wonder is it like to be free. I mean really free. No worries. No pain. No anxiety. Nothing that can cause you harm in form. Jesus has made me free from sins. It feels good to know that He did that for me. He didn't have to but He did for all of us. Yet there are some things that are clinging to me. It has been a struggle. Seriously. It has been a real fight. My flesh and spirit are at a constant war. Who is going to win? I understand what Paul says by some things I want to do, I don't do. Then there are some things I don't want to do but do. I so get that. I just want to be free in my mind as well as my spirit. No bills. No regrets. No shame. Completely free.

A love like that.

Hey guys. How are ya? ;)

I saw a movie by my favorite artist of all time this past weekend. Under The Cherry Moon. This is was my second time seeing it. The first time I saw it I really didn't pay it a whole lot of attention. But this go round I did. I like the movie a lot. Pretty funny, too. Tricky and Chris were hilarious. But you know what I got from it? I want a love just like that. I want someone who will love me no matter what I have. Or don't have. I want someone that will see my heart and not just my body. I want to be swept off my feet just like Mary Sharon was by Chris. He showed her that life can really be fun if you loosen up. Take a chance. That is something that I am learning how to do. I've been taught to always being afraid to do stuff. I want to take risks. I'm not saying I want to be careless but I do want to be spontaneous. I love how they met secretly and then when things got rough they no longer hid their relationship. Now, I don't want to betray my best friend for no man but I do want a love of my own. Someone that will go the distance and the miles for me. Someone that will love me divinely. Someone who will stand up for me and me for them. Somebody worth dying for. That is what I want. Now, if I had my way the ending would have been different. Christopher would....well, I'll let you see the movie for yourself.  ;)  But tell me something...is what I want wrong?

Khole......I've been there.

Hey everybody. Please forgive me for not writing sooner. It has been laziness for me. So please forgive me. But I feel like I have to talk about something. Khloe Kardashian. This girl, to me, gets a very bad rap. She really does. The media really tears this girl to shreds. And to me because of this she doesn't have the self esteem that she should have. Vey low self confidence. How do I know you say? Well, I was where she is mentally and emotionally. Now, we don't have the same background and have not been through the same things but there are some things that I have noticed about her that I myself used to do. I noticed that she really does not take the time to get to really know a person. She has gone from Lamar to French. Saying that, she is not paying any attention to what she is picking. See, when you date, you have to have discernment. You have check people's spirit out. Where are they coming from? Why do they act the way they act? Why do they hang around who they hang around? What are their motives for being with you? It is not that you are being insecure. It is that you have to be careful about you let into your life. Everybody cannot share your atmosphere with. What are their goals in life? What is it that they hope to accomplish? You must asks these questions. And even you must ask yourself these questions. You have to love yourself enough to not accept anything that is thrown your way. Just because it said "Hi!" does not mean you start to develop any type of relationship with it. Also, if this means that you have to be by yourself for a long time.....and I am not talking about a year or so.....I'm talking at least 3 or 4 years.....then so be it. Your heart and your head will thank you. Trust me. In the end, it will all be worth it. Pray Khloe and every other Khloe out there.

The Journey

Hey everyone. You guys...for the past two months I have really been making some changes to my life. And it all has to do with my weight. I give health tips at my church every Sunday and I am over the Health & Fitness ministry. Even as I give out the health tips, I really never put some of them to my own use. Now check this out. I really do believe in eating healthy and living healthy in every aspect of health. I even practice healthy cooking. My problem is portion control and sweets. I can be an emotional eater sometimes as well. You see...I have been battling my weight ever since I was 7 years old. The story goes like this: When my dad came and took me to Missouri where he was stationed for two weeks, he let me eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I did not recognize what he was doing to me because I was so young. But my grandmother and mother did. When he brought me home, he took me to my grandmother's house. Grandmother told me years later that when she saw me she wanted to cry. I had gained twelve pounds while I was with my dad. Too much weight for a seven year old. Ever since then, I have tried all type of diets and nothing ever stuck. I can remember being 13 years old, asking my mama if I could have liposuction. At 13 now. And as far as school was concerned.....I hated most days I had to go. I had some friends but the bullies could not be counted. My worst grades were 2nd, 3rd, 5th and 7th. Absolutely hated them. I use to dream about being home schooled all the time. My mother made me go though. But one thing that she told me that has not left me until this day is "Never entertained ignorance. Never give ignorance an audience." I still have to say it to myself sometimes. My childhood was really something serious to go through. That was why I use to love to read so much and be by myself sometimes because I knew that as long as I was with self I was alright. There were times I ate to soothe the pain of having to deal with life and other times I ate because it was available. Now, I am determined to turn that all around. I want to be the health tips that I give out every Sunday at church. I want to really walk in the fullness of everything that God has for me. And I don't want to be afraid to do it because of my size. Now check this out...there were times when I KNEW I was the finest woman in the room and could not and would not tell me other wise. I knew that before I step outside my bedroom door to go anywhere at that time I was the sexiest thing walking.  I knew. But then the other times came. I looked great but didn't feel great on inside. God has me in the process now of truly appreciating myself for all that I am while making myself better. I can do it. And i am going to do it. I am walking more now. Watching my portions especially. Really knowing when I am full. Especially late at night. Late nights, like after ten, I either eat tortilla chips, crackers or peanuts. These really help me in my journey. Well, that is all I have for now, guys. I think I will be doing a part 2 of this but I am not sure yet. Just keep praying for me and I will keep praying for you. Let's walk this journey together. Until next time....

Complain or Pray?

Hey guys. I have an issue. I'm going to start by telling you a little something about me as the introduction to this blog and to the issue. Here it goes....When I was about five years old, I saw a video. A music video that is. At the beginning of this video, the music started out slow and seductive. There was this light smoke and lighting that encircled the stage. Then appeared this light skinned guy with curly hair who had a nice mustache. In my five year old eyes, he was kind of tall but most definitely handsome. He wore a purple coat over a white ruffled shirt and gray pants with matching gray boots. Most exquisite he was. I didn't memorize the words to the song at that moment because I was too in awe of him. His way of singing was different as was his style of music and style of dress. I was indeed smitten. I later learned of this young man name. His name was Prince. I had heard of bedtime stories and fairytales with princes in them. But never have I ever heard of a boy named Prince. Needless to say, I fell in love with this "Prince". I remember telling my mother that I was going to marry him. :) When my uncle bought the Purple Rain album, he would always call me whenever he got ready to play the album. I would run to his room and sing along with the songs and look at the poster that was enclosed in the album sleeve. It was nothing better in the world than to hear "Dearly beloved...we are gathered here today to celebrate this thing called life." There was absolutely nothing better.

I am an adult now. A lot has changed since then. Hairstyles changed. Fashion changed. Technology has changed. Music has even changed. And my life has changed. Ever since I gave my life to Jesus, I've been noticing something. Those of us who call ourselves Christian have the scathing and seething and nasty attitudes towards people in the music industry. We have gotten so blatantly cold towards them that it is scary. We say that they need to get saved, which is true. But why should they when we don't offer the same kind of love that was shown towards us? Why should they break their necks to serve our God when don't act godly? You know what I mean. There have been documentary videos out talking about the truth behind this and that. And in these documentaries they have been called out of their names. Insulted in ways you wouldn't want a dog to be insulted. And the lies... don't even get me started. Some of that stuff we should already know that it is not of God. We should know better. But we CHOOSE not to do better. We as the people of God should pray for those who are lost. Complaining about what they are doing or what they are not doing is not going to get them to Jesus. At all. What would happen if we prayed more than complained? What if we stormed the gates of heaven for them? What would happen if we decided, "Yes, we are going to tell them the truth but we are going to love on them"? The Bible says, "With love and kindness I have drawn you". Did God save you by yelling and screaming at you? Calling you out of your name? Spreading lies about you? So why would yo do it to them? Think about it.

Kevin Terry: How I feel

Hey guys. I was online a couple of weeks ago, googling for some information. And I saw that this one website was talking about a gospel artist named Kevin Terry. And the information that they displayed on their website shocked me a bit because it was an allegedly Christian website. I was in shock about what was being wrote about this brother. At first, I didn't believe it because I know how "us" can be. But then people were saying that everything was true. Okay, fine. But here is the thing: those of us who called ourselves Christians were and are acting extremely unChrist like. Well, what do you mean by that? Glad you asked. When a brother of ours falls, the Word says that we are to be there to pick him up. By no means should we condone the sin but we are to be there to cover our brother and help him. I am not saying turn a blind eye. Not at all. But don't beat our brother down. The world was already doing that. So why should we do it? Okay, he made a mistake. He made a mistake. But guess what? Who hasn't? It breaks my heart to see people who love the title of Christian but never living it. And for some reason, we got this thing in our heads that if we insult, bully and scrutinize people, they will come out of their sin. Guess what? They won't. As a matter of fact, the spirit or spirits that come out of your mouth will strengthen the spirit or spirits already on them. Since people need scripture, go check out James 3: 1-12. You think that people don't already feel awful for what they have done? Sure, they do. Never let no one fool you. They maybe saying that what you say don't hurt them but it does. You may never see it but it does. Am I saying that we should sit back and condone sin? Absolutely not! That's our problem now! But I am saying we need to learn how to handle things with tact because looking at what church folks have said about this brother we clearly don't know how to do that. Whenever you devote time and energy to kill another person whether by website, blog or YouTube, something is wrong with your spirit. I won't say your Holy Ghost because the Holy Ghost don't act like that. We know that! We all know that! I don't care what you church folk say. Lift Kevin up in prayer and stop talking about Him like he is lower than dirt. You know what church folks(Saints, this ain't for y'all. Y'all good.)? You will be judged by God for what you did to Kevin and what you did not. Watch your mouth and your step. This man may have to end up laying before God for your very soul. So watch how treat him and anybody else like him.

Mr. Kevin Terry....you keep your head up, brother. Let church folk say what they say. Us Saints are praying for you. You know what...this is what God gave me concerning your situation. Whenever you make a decision to totally live for God, everybody is not going to like it. People, as you can tell, get down right malicious. People lose their minds because they can no longer be your God. As long as you did what they did, said what they said, acted how they acted, they were all right with you. But when God starts to call you out of your situation and heed His call, they want to keep you a clone. Following the masses like they are. But God be thanked that you chose not to do that. And to me, it's evident that you chose not to do that. Because the persecution. Yes, it's embarrassing. Shamful and shaming. But God is refining you. He's making you the man that He says that you are. You are in transition and process right now. You are going to come out as pure gold though. And even your choir has got to go through. If not, they are going to have to leave. Because on this next go round, there won't be any hiding or fluff. The anointing is going to come forth for real and not just the gift. Paul said "it was good that I was afflicted". It's good, Kevin. It's good. You are now even more qualified to be the choir director, singer and songwriter that you are because you have gone through. You are going to be all right. You're going to be alright. We're praying for you, bro. And us Saints love you.

Jesus is for EVERYBODY!

Hey everybody. With this month being all about love and such, I think I want to deal with love in another way. And the way I want to deal with it is by talking about our personal testimonies. We all know that through God's love and grace that He has saved us. Right? Well, if you don't, now you do.  :) Jesus paid the price for all of our sins by dying on the cross. You get it? Okay. So why then do we who have been redeemed by His blood act like we have never done nothing wrong? Or why do we throw our noses up in the air when someone else gets saved? Let me explain. I saw a video on YouTube saying that Tonex has come back to God after leading a homosexual lifestyle. He rededicated his life back to God at Dorinda Clark-Cole's Singers, Musicians, and Arts Conference in August of 2013. Now for those that found out about it such as myself were ecstatic about his deliverance. We had been praying that God would bring him back home. And praise God He did. But then you have the people I like to call "The Others". The Others are mad that he has given his life back to God. Actually upset that he wants to be the vessel God has called him to be. THEY ARE MAD ABOUT THIS! Now mind you, these were the same people who were allegedly praying withe rest of us for his deliverance. How you get upset when somebody that you have been praying for gets saved, finally does get saved? Is there something I'm missing here? Am I wrong? Y'all, the same love the Jesus used to bring you into Himself should be the same love that we extend to other people. Jesus' love is not limited to just one group of people. It is for everybody! Not just us! Ja Rule got saved during the filming of "I Fell In Love With A Church Girl" and some people are mad about that! Really people? Really? The ones we say need Jesus, they get him and we mad about it? Jesus is not a toy! The Word declares we are to share this gospel with the world. The world, y'all. Let us truly start loving the people Jesus saves and welcome them with open arms. And stop trippin'! I have been hollerin' all over the place but this subject has gotten on my nerves and needed to address it. :) Whew....I think I am done now.  :) Talk to you guys soon.

The Plan

Hello, everyone! I hope that your new year started out great. And if it did not, there is something you can do about it. You can plan for what you want to happen for the rest of the  year. That's right. Plan what you want to happen for the rest of the year. The Bible says to write the vision and make it plain. What are your dreams? What do you want out of life this year? What is it that you like to do? What is it that you like to do? For the year, make a list that is feasible for you to do this year. Don't put down nothing crazy, just something you know can actually be accomplished. This is going to be a great year for all of us. Follow God's orders and watch what will be accomplished this year for you. Keep your hand in His. He won't lead you wrong.

Forward

Hello, beautiful people. We have come to the close of another year. By God's grace and mercy, we have come this far. And only by that same grace and mercy being renewed everyday, we shall go farther. I know that many of you have face many a challenge in this soon-to-be past year. No doubt there were tears, fear, doubt crept in, anger and anguish, hate even. But with God's loving power He pulled you through. It did not matter what the situation was He was always right there. He will continue to be right there. You put your hand in His this coming year. Let Him guide and lead you. He is not going to take you somewhere that you won't come out of it. He will bring you through the valleys and the storms. He knows that you will have to go through these things because He has a destiny to bring you to. He has given you a future, a hope, an expected end. He knows what lies ahead of you. But the thing that you must do to make sure that you get to your destiny is to move forward. Hanging on to things of the past thinking that somehow it will help you in the end is not going to help you move forward. Holding on to anger, hurt, unforgiveness, hatred and anything else ungodly will hinder your destiny. Never allow any of those things to keep you from the future that God has for you. The person or people that hurt you are more than likely not even thinking about you. So why allow yourself to carry on such bitterness? If they are in the wrong, please understand everybody has to answer for their own lives. Everybody got a day coming. Everybody. You included. So let go and really let God have His way in your life. What if God held a grudge against you? And what if that grudge was so strong that He even refused to send our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ to this Earth? Now He would have every right to but He loved us so much in spite of ourselves that He gave His only begotten Son. Let His love surge through you this year. And don't let not one demon in hell keep you from loving people and loving yourself the way God loves you. Move forward. God bless you and Happy New Year.

What I have learned

Hey babies! Guess what? Yesterday was my birthday. Yep, I'm 35. That's right. 3 & 5. There is alot that I have learned in my 35 years of being on this Earth. I have experienced much. Have seen much. And done much. Some of it was good and some of it was bad. But God kept me through it all. It has made the woman that I am and am becoming. I used to beat myself up all the time about the mistakes that I have made. I had to learn that all I really needed to do was learn from them and move on past the hurt and the shame. I got myself into some situations that I came really close to almost not getting out of. But God....His power, grace and mercy is unquestionable. No matter what we do, He is still right there. He doesn't like every decision we make yet He knows how to get us back on track. That is what He is doing in my life. Putting everything back on track. And you know whay He is doing it?Because I asked Him to. That's all it really takes. Just ask Him. And He will do it. You want to be delivered from something or even someone? Just ask Him. Need some help with bills? Just ask Him. Feeling lonely and needing companionship? Just ask Him and He will send somebody. But be specific though.  :) He will do whatever you need Him to do if it is according to His will. I pray that you will allow His will to be done in you today. And for the rest of your life.