Hold on to nothing.

Hey everybody. How are you, guys? I hope that all is well for you.

 Today, I want to let you all know where I am in my walk with God. God has really been dealing with my heart about even the smallest details of my life. Last night right when I thought I was going to go to bed, I started cleaning off my dresser which was full of stuff that I no longer needed. I had old thumbtacks that I used when I would hang my posters. I took all my posters down years ago. I got rid of old hairpins and hair accessories that I honestly forgot I had. I really started this process of cleaning out my room of any thing that I no longer had use for going on a month ago when I first started reading No More Sheets by Prophetess Juanita Bynum. This cleansing my house and spirit is really helping me. It seems as if everything that was not good for me is losing it's grip on my life which I am most grateful for. I feel better now. I am not 100% yet but I am getting there. I woke up this morning doing the same thing. Since I am not yet in my own place at the moment, I live with my grandmother. My grandmother has stuff in the house that no longer works or has holes in it or just out right has not use for anything. Last night I started cleaning out the linen closet which holds everything that has holes or is just old. My grandmother was raised on a farm. They really didn't have a whole lot so I can understand why she does what she does. But I have come to the conclusion that if I am going to anything that I need from God, I am going to have to let go of anything that is keeping me from getting what it is that I need.

We often ask God to do something or give us something without us making a sacrifice. We want what we want and we want it on demand. But you have not put yourself in the proper position to get what you need then what you need or even desire can't come to you. We want to be married but we don't want to stop our cheating ways. We want a new car but we don't want to get the car that we can pay for. We don't want to mature so that we can get what we need. But maturity and responsibility is necessary. We cannot keep hanging on to old habits that is continuously keeping us from being where God wants us to be. It is time that we mature. We have get in proper position that God can bless us. And don't complain about it. It is not easy true enough. But it is still worth it. God will always be worth it. Everything that God has for you; you do want it. As a matter of fact, you need it. But you have to allow God to grow you. I understand that we are and can be insecure, afraid, scared or sometimes just outright lazy. You have to take a chance. Take a chance. It would not hurt you to get rid of CDs that you have not listen to in years. It would not kill you to take clothes that don't fit any more, if they ever fit you at all, and recycle them. Trust God to provide for you all the way. I don't care how empty your home may get. If God provided before, will He not do it again? Has He ever lied to you? Has He ever mistreated you? Has He ever not provided for you? The answer is NO. If He did it before, He will do it again. Thank you, Tye Tribbett. :) Trust God. For real. We say we trust Him but we don't act nor live like it. Don't try to trust Him. Just trust Him. And let go of anything old that is keeping you from trusting Him.  

Free

Guess what? I got my hair cut Thursday. I got it all cut off. My hair was in need of a serious cut. it was ll different lengths and needed deep conditioning. I went to a beauty school to get my hair done. When I first walked in, I told the stylist I was just looking for a wash, blow dry and style. But because of the condition of my hair, she herself was not so sure. So she went and got her teacher. Her teacher looked at my hair and told me what I needed to hear about my hair. She said since I was already natural that I needed to start fresh for real. See, I started going natural three years ago but did not properly cut my hair the way that I needed to cut it. So I took off bits and pieces of my own. Not good. She told me that she does not teach her students to camouflage. If there is a problem, there is a problem. I said okay. She told me it would be way better for me to start all over. And I did. I am cute with my baby afro. :) I look better than I thought I would. It was like my head was saying, "Awww...." A spirit of release was on me that day and it still is. I feel so free right now. And then I have been reading Dr. Juanita Bynum's book, "No More Sheets". That book is really blessing my life right now. There have been some things that I have been longing to break free from. And this book is helping me do it. It is like the light is really on now. And that Hairstylist/teacher blessed me in more ways than one. She not only cut my hair. She also spoke into my life by talking about my hair. She said don't put a band aid on something that needs surgery. I won't forget that. We as people often times do that. We would rather smooth things over and just say that it is cool when it is not. That is what I had been doing all my life. I have grown tired of just ignoring the situation and acting like I was delivered when I was really struggling. In order for me to be all that God has called me to be, I had to repent of all the times that I was disobedient, lazy, slothful, procrastinating, rebellious, and hypocritical. I want to be the real woman that God has already proclaimed that I am. As of yesterday, I started my process my canceling two profiles that I have had for about six or seven years. My flesh did not like it but my spirit was patting me on the back. There was some clothes that was given to me that I had not worn because I had not gotten around to wearing them. But they were not clothes that was befitting for a woman of God like myself. And also I will be getting rid of some music soon. I like the path that God has me on. I want to do all the things that God has placed on my heart to do. Everything. I have ideas that could really further the Kingdom of God. And I want God's thumbprint on it. I want to be all that God says I can be. This process is getting me there. Pray for me as I continue on my journey to freedom.


Also, I want to suggest another book to you. Dr. Ty Adam's book, "Single, Saved, and Having Sex". Please check it out.