Guess what? I got my hair cut Thursday. I got it all cut off. My hair was in need of a serious cut. it was ll different lengths and needed deep conditioning. I went to a beauty school to get my hair done. When I first walked in, I told the stylist I was just looking for a wash, blow dry and style. But because of the condition of my hair, she herself was not so sure. So she went and got her teacher. Her teacher looked at my hair and told me what I needed to hear about my hair. She said since I was already natural that I needed to start fresh for real. See, I started going natural three years ago but did not properly cut my hair the way that I needed to cut it. So I took off bits and pieces of my own. Not good. She told me that she does not teach her students to camouflage. If there is a problem, there is a problem. I said okay. She told me it would be way better for me to start all over. And I did. I am cute with my baby afro. :) I look better than I thought I would. It was like my head was saying, "Awww...." A spirit of release was on me that day and it still is. I feel so free right now. And then I have been reading Dr. Juanita Bynum's book, "No More Sheets". That book is really blessing my life right now. There have been some things that I have been longing to break free from. And this book is helping me do it. It is like the light is really on now. And that Hairstylist/teacher blessed me in more ways than one. She not only cut my hair. She also spoke into my life by talking about my hair. She said don't put a band aid on something that needs surgery. I won't forget that. We as people often times do that. We would rather smooth things over and just say that it is cool when it is not. That is what I had been doing all my life. I have grown tired of just ignoring the situation and acting like I was delivered when I was really struggling. In order for me to be all that God has called me to be, I had to repent of all the times that I was disobedient, lazy, slothful, procrastinating, rebellious, and hypocritical. I want to be the real woman that God has already proclaimed that I am. As of yesterday, I started my process my canceling two profiles that I have had for about six or seven years. My flesh did not like it but my spirit was patting me on the back. There was some clothes that was given to me that I had not worn because I had not gotten around to wearing them. But they were not clothes that was befitting for a woman of God like myself. And also I will be getting rid of some music soon. I like the path that God has me on. I want to do all the things that God has placed on my heart to do. Everything. I have ideas that could really further the Kingdom of God. And I want God's thumbprint on it. I want to be all that God says I can be. This process is getting me there. Pray for me as I continue on my journey to freedom.
Also, I want to suggest another book to you. Dr. Ty Adam's book, "Single, Saved, and Having Sex". Please check it out.
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
What are you going to do?
Hey everybody. What is going on? Hope everything is good. Great. Today, I need to talk to guys about something. Especially to my fellow saints out there. Here goes:
At my church, I give out health information every Sunday at my church, Divine Love Fellowship. Novemeber of last year, I was preparing to get information HIV/AIDS by watching some YouTube videos. I saw this one video where they had a list of people who well known in the nation or just in their own community. There was one picture caught my eye. It was a picture of a man named Willi Ninja. I was oddly drawn to this man in the video. I decided to do some research about him. I found that he was a choreographer, dancer, runway trainer and even an artist. He was also gay. He was well known and well loved in the gay community and in the fashion community. It has been said to know Willi was to love him. There is even one video on YouTube where he is given the name Father Almighty. This 6'3", broad shouldered, handsome man was able to bring the dance style called vogueing to the main stream with the help of a few others such as Jose & Lois Xtravaganza. Madonna's greatest hit ever "Vogue" was inspired and created by these wonderfully, creative young men and the entire gay community at large. Through Willi, I got exposed to a subculture called the Ballroom. This is where gay, bisexual and transgender people can come together to be creative and show their individual talent on the runway. There are categories such as Fem Queen Vogue, Butch Queen in Drag, Realness, and many others. Their scoring goes to ten which means ovahness. Ovahness means great by the way. If you don't do well, you get chopped. While discovering all this, I was amazed at how much about gay people and the gay community I did not know. I never knew there was a such thing as a ball for gay people. I was like many of you. If I heard the word ball, I would think of pretty girls in long white dresses and guys in tuxes. The ballroom scene does have that element but not all the way all the time. To see so many men and women involved in such a scene was mind blowing. But then there was another side that was shown to me. I started looking at people's testimonies of how God brought them out of the gay lifestyle. Many had been molested and abused, some had not. Some were introduced to it. There was young lady on the Tyra Banks show who I believe was forced into because of some people she got herself caught up with. But I digress. Then just last week, I watched a documentary on YouTube called Lost In The Crowd. The documentary interview LGBT youth who had been thrown out of their homes because they were gay. To see the documentary, go here: <iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/JsM7zYFpVJE" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>.
Listen, after watching the documentary, I am starting to see people as God sees them. I have a different love for people now. I have an appreciation for things that I don't always understand or even know about. I have gay people in my family. I even look at them differently now. I love them still. I understand the passage of scripture that says "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall have everlasting life. For He sent not His Son to condemn the world but that the world through Him might be saved." John:3:16,17 I understand now. I know what my assignment is. Saints of the most high God. No, we are not to get comfortable with any lifestyle of sin but we are to lead people to our wonderful Savior, Jesus. That is what God wants from us. Have got to get passed out traditional and religious thinking by obeying the Holy Spirit when He speaks to about a certain situation or topic. I see why God keeps putting gay marriage in our faces. He wants us to deal with that spirit without being demeaning and condemning. If you just give people this Jesus that many of us claim we love so much, then God can really move on this on Earth. And He does want to. But what are we willing to do so He can do it? I challenge every saint out there to actually sit back and ask God what does He really want you to do so can effect the world for Him. I know what I am going to do. Do you?
At my church, I give out health information every Sunday at my church, Divine Love Fellowship. Novemeber of last year, I was preparing to get information HIV/AIDS by watching some YouTube videos. I saw this one video where they had a list of people who well known in the nation or just in their own community. There was one picture caught my eye. It was a picture of a man named Willi Ninja. I was oddly drawn to this man in the video. I decided to do some research about him. I found that he was a choreographer, dancer, runway trainer and even an artist. He was also gay. He was well known and well loved in the gay community and in the fashion community. It has been said to know Willi was to love him. There is even one video on YouTube where he is given the name Father Almighty. This 6'3", broad shouldered, handsome man was able to bring the dance style called vogueing to the main stream with the help of a few others such as Jose & Lois Xtravaganza. Madonna's greatest hit ever "Vogue" was inspired and created by these wonderfully, creative young men and the entire gay community at large. Through Willi, I got exposed to a subculture called the Ballroom. This is where gay, bisexual and transgender people can come together to be creative and show their individual talent on the runway. There are categories such as Fem Queen Vogue, Butch Queen in Drag, Realness, and many others. Their scoring goes to ten which means ovahness. Ovahness means great by the way. If you don't do well, you get chopped. While discovering all this, I was amazed at how much about gay people and the gay community I did not know. I never knew there was a such thing as a ball for gay people. I was like many of you. If I heard the word ball, I would think of pretty girls in long white dresses and guys in tuxes. The ballroom scene does have that element but not all the way all the time. To see so many men and women involved in such a scene was mind blowing. But then there was another side that was shown to me. I started looking at people's testimonies of how God brought them out of the gay lifestyle. Many had been molested and abused, some had not. Some were introduced to it. There was young lady on the Tyra Banks show who I believe was forced into because of some people she got herself caught up with. But I digress. Then just last week, I watched a documentary on YouTube called Lost In The Crowd. The documentary interview LGBT youth who had been thrown out of their homes because they were gay. To see the documentary, go here: <iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/JsM7zYFpVJE" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>.
Listen, after watching the documentary, I am starting to see people as God sees them. I have a different love for people now. I have an appreciation for things that I don't always understand or even know about. I have gay people in my family. I even look at them differently now. I love them still. I understand the passage of scripture that says "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall have everlasting life. For He sent not His Son to condemn the world but that the world through Him might be saved." John:3:16,17 I understand now. I know what my assignment is. Saints of the most high God. No, we are not to get comfortable with any lifestyle of sin but we are to lead people to our wonderful Savior, Jesus. That is what God wants from us. Have got to get passed out traditional and religious thinking by obeying the Holy Spirit when He speaks to about a certain situation or topic. I see why God keeps putting gay marriage in our faces. He wants us to deal with that spirit without being demeaning and condemning. If you just give people this Jesus that many of us claim we love so much, then God can really move on this on Earth. And He does want to. But what are we willing to do so He can do it? I challenge every saint out there to actually sit back and ask God what does He really want you to do so can effect the world for Him. I know what I am going to do. Do you?
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
The Ultimate War
Hi, everybody. I know that it has been a long time since I have last posted. But God has been dealing with me about my purpose and I want to do the will of my Father. When there is a will, there is surely a way.
With being Christian, there is much that you face naturally and supernaturally. That is because there is a constant battle for your soul going on. The Bible say that in this life we are going to have trials and tribulations. We have them at work, at home, at school and even at church. But I have learn in my coming up on 10 years of being saved on March 30th that no matter how old you get in the Spirit, you will still have to battle against the flesh and the spirit. Since I believe that this avenue is going to be used to help people, I am going to be transparent as I possibly can without being super explicit. *whew* Here goes:
Early this morning, I was in struggle with something that I have been trying to break free from for a long time. I was trying to go back to sleep but I couldn't. The images came and I was trying to resist at first. I really was. But it was like the images were becoming more and more real. I finally gave in. I felt like I have always felt afterwards. Like crap. I knew I let Heaven down. I repented. But soon after I repented I was attacked in my sleep and dreams. Let me explain. After the battle and after repenting, I was able to get back to sleep. In my dreams, I had a filthy, disgusting nightmare about me, a friend of mine and an holy hip hop female artist. I won't give any names. The dream was extremely distorted and evil. No sooner then I am able to wake up from my dream. I feel something grab my hand gently. I did not see who or what it was. I know that it was an evil spirit and this spirit was saying something I could not understand. With me knowing this, I immediately started rebuking it. Yet I could hear no noise coming from my own mouth. Nothing was working. So even with me not being able to hear myself talk, I still could call on Jesus. With me doing that, the spirit tried to hang on tighter. I kept calling on Jesus. And finally the spirit let me go. I was so relieved that Jesus set me free. I was grateful for just knowing that I think His name without having to actually say it an demons would leave me alone.
Listen, y'all. This walk with Jesus is not always pretty. It's not always without some type of drama. But yet while you are walking out your salvation, Jesus can give you a peace that can surpass all your understanding even when you mess up. I wish that I can bypass a lot of things that I have to go through but I cannot. I am learning that no matter what time of day it is, you have to learn how to kill your own flesh. Your flesh can cause you to fail every time if you don't bring it under subjection to the Holy Spirit. I am learning that more and more. You don't want to keep letting the Father down and letting yourself down as well. This war between flesh and spirit will not end until Christ raptures us away. In the meantime, we have subdue the powers and evils of this world and the powers and the evil that is within us. Remember, greater is He that is in you than he who is in the world. If you fall, repent and dust yourself off. And walk in God's grace and power to never bow down to that spirit or spirits ever again.
With being Christian, there is much that you face naturally and supernaturally. That is because there is a constant battle for your soul going on. The Bible say that in this life we are going to have trials and tribulations. We have them at work, at home, at school and even at church. But I have learn in my coming up on 10 years of being saved on March 30th that no matter how old you get in the Spirit, you will still have to battle against the flesh and the spirit. Since I believe that this avenue is going to be used to help people, I am going to be transparent as I possibly can without being super explicit. *whew* Here goes:
Early this morning, I was in struggle with something that I have been trying to break free from for a long time. I was trying to go back to sleep but I couldn't. The images came and I was trying to resist at first. I really was. But it was like the images were becoming more and more real. I finally gave in. I felt like I have always felt afterwards. Like crap. I knew I let Heaven down. I repented. But soon after I repented I was attacked in my sleep and dreams. Let me explain. After the battle and after repenting, I was able to get back to sleep. In my dreams, I had a filthy, disgusting nightmare about me, a friend of mine and an holy hip hop female artist. I won't give any names. The dream was extremely distorted and evil. No sooner then I am able to wake up from my dream. I feel something grab my hand gently. I did not see who or what it was. I know that it was an evil spirit and this spirit was saying something I could not understand. With me knowing this, I immediately started rebuking it. Yet I could hear no noise coming from my own mouth. Nothing was working. So even with me not being able to hear myself talk, I still could call on Jesus. With me doing that, the spirit tried to hang on tighter. I kept calling on Jesus. And finally the spirit let me go. I was so relieved that Jesus set me free. I was grateful for just knowing that I think His name without having to actually say it an demons would leave me alone.
Listen, y'all. This walk with Jesus is not always pretty. It's not always without some type of drama. But yet while you are walking out your salvation, Jesus can give you a peace that can surpass all your understanding even when you mess up. I wish that I can bypass a lot of things that I have to go through but I cannot. I am learning that no matter what time of day it is, you have to learn how to kill your own flesh. Your flesh can cause you to fail every time if you don't bring it under subjection to the Holy Spirit. I am learning that more and more. You don't want to keep letting the Father down and letting yourself down as well. This war between flesh and spirit will not end until Christ raptures us away. In the meantime, we have subdue the powers and evils of this world and the powers and the evil that is within us. Remember, greater is He that is in you than he who is in the world. If you fall, repent and dust yourself off. And walk in God's grace and power to never bow down to that spirit or spirits ever again.
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